(it's not about how pleased he is with himself - he was born like this, after all. 'no longer human' is a cold, lonely friend that can keep others away. it takes trust to allow dazai to come close, to touch, to allow his mere existence to be disarming. none of these come from fyodor.
instead, it's just the discomfort of watching fyodor being caged that entertains him. he might be better in so many ways, slight and big ones, but he knows the cruelty he's imposing on the man in front of him.
it's amusing. it makes him smile.)
I feel nothing.
(just a final nail on the coffin. it's so delicate how dazai sets his free hand on top of fyodor, almost trapping it as much as the other feels. fyodor has no physical strength to pull them if he tried.)
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instead, it's just the discomfort of watching fyodor being caged that entertains him. he might be better in so many ways, slight and big ones, but he knows the cruelty he's imposing on the man in front of him.
it's amusing. it makes him smile.)
I feel nothing.
(just a final nail on the coffin. it's so delicate how dazai sets his free hand on top of fyodor, almost trapping it as much as the other feels. fyodor has no physical strength to pull them if he tried.)